Gary

刚刚去探望我的教练，看到他的那一刻，我不能想象那个是他，是我那幽默，爱开玩笑，中气十足的教练，Gary。我们都是这样叫他的，对我们少林来说，他是我们的朋友多过是教练。他躺在病床上，身体软趴趴的，鼻子插了根管，昏睡着，口打开着，拼命的呼吸着。看了多心痛，听前辈说，好像是脑里有血块诸塞，右脑肿着，如果肿向后脑，性命不保，诺向左脑，将会变成植物人。他的情况是，呼吸困难，血压偏高，心脏无力，右脑发肿。他家人都在周围和护士讨论着如何给他喂食，我，权力（助教），俊宾（09年中六毕业的主席），06年毕业的秘书，和德源
（07年中六毕业的财政），也在里面。我们不能做什么，只是看着他。前辈们都到Gary 而变为他打气，叫他快点好起来，我没去跟他说什么。因为那时的我，眼眶里泪水已经在打滚了，我很清楚如果我再开口说什么，眼泪一定会忍不住的，我不想在他家人面前哭，让他们更伤心，因为我知道他们已经哭了好几遍了。看着他的脸，我努力回想Gary 以前的摸样，差太多，真的差太多了，我甚至有那么一刻的希望哪个不是Gary 。 他可是我们恒毅少林的教练耶，这么好，这么优秀的教练，怎么回昏睡三天都没有醒呢？？！！！不久，Ariel ，07年秘书，和一个我中一时就毕业了的前辈也到了。Ariel说她也不相信里面那个躺着的是Gary.我们又能做什么呢？什么都不能.......Gary，快醒来吧，不管为了什么都好，求求你！

男人，回你们的火星啦！！！！！混帐！

什么咚咚的什么咚咚啊............ 真是混帐东西，说什么以后都不要联络，不会见面了！去新加坡就很厉害么！！！什么咚咚跟什么咚咚啊！！！！！！！！！！ 又有一个因告白失败而失去的朋友，到底是我的错还是他们的错啊？？？混帐！他们都把友情当儿戏吗？还是连粪土都不如？一段友情可以这样轻易就放下吗？那把他当死党的我到底算什么啊？告白失败很大不了吗？难道告白前都没想过失败后会怎样再去告白吗？混帐！！！如果说告白失败后再见面会尴尬，那接受不了那场面就不要告白好了啊！王八蛋！天下的男人都是那么不会处理感情问题的吗？混账东西，男人，世界上就没用的动物！回你们的火星啦！不要在这里让我们把你们当朋友后再抛弃我们，你们这群白生的动物！！！！！ 混帐！

没什么......

今天那个Wilson 说要去Singapore找学校读。我，小马，Ah Dear ,和就一起出去。本来只约了小马和dear 的，他说他要走了要出来，所以嘛一起咯。都还好啦，只是被吓到一下。很久没有写部落格了，突然很想一个人，所以就写了，虽然知道他不会来看，但还是写了。今天在piano 那里状况很差，什么都做不好，好遭，还被骂。我一直以为说到的东西就做得到，每次做到一半就想放弃了，真没用丫我。脑里一直重复被骂时的样子，真遭。不写了，没心情。

a little accident before Bio papers

Still a bit of fearful now, maybe when that was happening i was not so startle about it, but now........ i can't even sleep properly . I think i really got shock , maybe because this was my 1st time to happen accident.

I'm not the driver, say 1st, lol. It was happened in the greenland road before pass by Chong Hua high school . My friend, Xiang Jing was the driver, actually this was my second time to sit his car, I don't know what the car's called :p , paise, because i'm always not good in all this. This was a 四连橦 accident, we was the second car, but this was also our fault. He was too late to stoped and hit the Kancil in front of us. Then the car behind us hit us, the car behind again hit the car brhind of us . Swt. He was startled totally at 1st,actually me too.

Luckily we both were good citizen who followed law to tied seat belt , kaka. So we were safe . Actually noone was hurted in that accident too. All of the people in the four cars including baby were safe, THANK GOD BLESS US . i can see that my friend was so nervous, and he felt scared too, because that car was his mom's car. We drived the car to a side, and a man who own a repair car center was there. My friend and i was though that they were doubtful bcause when we just hit the car, within a second, the man came for us and helped. Too fast for him and his kakitangan to be there la.

Among the four cars, one was boss, looked bussy, he left for worked just after few minute the accident . Another two car were fitted in with family, one was Indian's family, they are going to pinic..... i guess. The Kancil was Malay car, the man , i think the father of the family looked the unhappy when the accident happened, i mean, of course nobody will happy on that situation, but looks like we spoilt they family plan , so sorry. I feel like he wanted to scold us, but just maybe he saw we were still so young, hehe.

Those adults were discussed at a side, i feel like they were wondering how to settle my friend and i , lol. Honestly , at that situation who don't scared, exspecially this was our 1st time. XD But my friend was thousand time of worried and fear than i'm, so i've to be staunch and console him.

Finally, his dad was came and settled all for us, he went to report to the police and masquerade that he was the driver, bacause as he said, my friend ( his son ) was still "P" if happen any accident, maybe lessen will gantung.

After that , i called Billy came and fetch us to library, as at 1st we are going to library , n_n

Behind of his car

In front of his car, just a little spoilt

SPM~~~~ What the fool it's

OMG , SPM had just past 3 papers, honestly i don't feel it is hard , however i know i can do better, but i din't. So sorry to myself and don't know how start now again, what the hell i am worring now ! Sweat ! My english, it's really a fool , i had try my best during the exam, but not during the preparation , i know i can do even better than what i had did, i know i could, but what had happened was i do not pay enough effort and concentrate on my SPM . It's really kidding me..............

Recently, nothing much to happen. Everything is so normal, everyday life past like photostat, the same the same and the same.............STUDY. However, what's the difference is the place that i study at. Swt,........... i really don't know what to say.By this time, i should go to cook rice for dinner, but i allow myself to be lazy now. >.0
Honestly, i had nothing to write about. If say the lattest new of me , i think is that i had graduated gua. Oh ya, i have remember, my notebook had taken away for reformate, and what make me angry is the guys din't copy up my backup for me and somemore change my Windows Vista to XP,this really run me crazy .And the night, i cant sleep and feel very sad and angry, luckily Sam accompany me, Thx~
Haiz... don't know what to write ........... The incident that happened on dear is really miserable, dear , don't be numbness to your life, i hope you can away of all those early .

好吧！你得逞了，我又生气了！

在我世界里，你无敌了，因为你是唯一一个能让我生气的人。我觉得我们分手时我忘了向你拿回一样属于我的东西............我的情绪掌控盘。还在你那儿，因此我的情绪仍被你操控着。你随便称赞我一下，我就会开心整个星期。而你对我的敷衍能让我马上没有心情做任何事，即使明天考试了，也完全读不进。

你真的跟我画得那么干净了吗？我觉得是，至少你不会再为我的愚蠢而生气，为我的天真而担心。一切现在对你来说都不重要，无所谓了。分手后的你还有早睡吗？周末前一晚应该很少会在家吧，周末晚都在打game吧。分手后，你潇洒地说你在享受少年时光，做些让老后不会后悔的事。或许那样的快乐以让你把之前对我的关心冲洗去了吧！

你很快乐，理当我应该替你高兴，但当我需要你，找你时，换来的只是你对我的无奈，敷衍和懒得理的态度。我真的拿么不值得你去关心，去安慰吗？我知道这都是我的错，是我的错。那么你可以把我的情绪掌控盘还我吗？

最近，我遇到了不顺心，难过的事。难过得需要人陪时，我甚至很迷惑要找谁好。我应该可以直接call你的，但你对我的态度让我害怕了，怕得不敢找你。我知道，又是我的错。

你不知道几时才会来看我的blog。很多时候我很想写blog但都懒惰。只有你，只有你能给我一伤心就写blog的冲动。分手后，我不生气了，很难生气了，但一遇到你，只要和你顶嘴超过三句，我的心自然就不舒服，关电话后我的心就更难受，接着很生气，然后就什么都做不了，只能取出笔和纸拼命的用文字发泄。

分手了，但我的情绪掌控盘还在你那儿，而你的影子还留在我这儿。我的情绪才不会在被你操控呢？而你的影子又何时才会在我心里消失呢？找一天我们出来把它还给对方好吗？