我应该怎么开始呢？懒惰啰里啰唆地开头，就直接进入主题吧。每个人都说一样的话，说甚么恨自己啦，自己无用啦，不想活啦，什么什么的。我不想和他们一样，每一天我都过得很开心，尤其开学了，开始忙了，很多东西都可以不用去翻不用去想。
为什么我的爱情路不能像Gossip Girl 里的主角们一样，那么干脆，那么潇洒呢？为什么都说不了，还那么执着？明明拒绝了却还说给一次机会。再拒绝一次，说我自私说我狠心。说不可能了却还说应改试试。为什么，为什么，为什么，为什么！为什么分后不能再当朋友，为什么没有开始也不能当朋友，为什么喜欢上了要当朋友很难，为什么为什么，为什么！为什么！啊~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
我不要，我不想，也不敢再被爱了。一旦在被爱就意味着我再会失去一个朋友，我不要！我要的是朋友。一旦过了朋友的那条线，很多缺点就会暴露，这就是为什么你偷偷喜欢他/她时的感觉怎样都比在一起后的好。难道大家都不懂吗？
我讨厌这样，讨厌现在的他，他说我变自私了变得不像以前认识的我了。那时当然的啊，我们都踩过了当朋友的那条线。为什么人那么想不开？向自己喜欢的人告白固然是好事，但要告白就要有被拒绝的心理准备啊。如果失败了，当然还可以继续喜欢，继续追求，只是方法应该检点一点，低调一点了。因为被拒绝后还热情十足地继续，有时候未必是好事，更糟的是有时候还会被讨厌。那不时更没有机会了吗？
我的爱情被诅咒了，我担心的不是没有男朋友，而是没有朋友，我要的是朋友，不是男朋友！
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Friday, June 12, 2009
Missing day
今天，我做了什么？我不知道耶。人是跟朋友出去了啦，但魂却不知留在哪里。明天还要去学校，我的魂都还没有回来。
为什么会出去呢？我也不知道，是那个coin决定的，我真的不知道为什么我会去。当我先到那里时，我遇到kk那一党，很自然地，我闪的很快，自然得自己都不知道为什么。后来舒薇叫我到电影那里meet ，我乘escalator一上到，直望便见到他们了，不知 道为什么，我竟然躲起来，后来趁他们不注意时溜掉。我到电器店前坐了下来，感觉很害怕见到大家。我本来想不如自己一个人走走了就回了。但有想到是那天要我来的，而且既然来了不可能就这样回吧，过后......忘记怎样过了。
为什么会出去呢？我也不知道，是那个coin决定的，我真的不知道为什么我会去。当我先到那里时，我遇到kk那一党，很自然地，我闪的很快，自然得自己都不知道为什么。后来舒薇叫我到电影那里meet ，我乘escalator一上到，直望便见到他们了，不知 道为什么，我竟然躲起来，后来趁他们不注意时溜掉。我到电器店前坐了下来，感觉很害怕见到大家。我本来想不如自己一个人走走了就回了。但有想到是那天要我来的，而且既然来了不可能就这样回吧，过后......忘记怎样过了。
Thursday, June 11, 2009
directionless
What's life mean? Don't know why, recently always think of this question, how dump am i . Holiday should be happy what. A lot of things happened this holiday,about friend , own relationship ,family , school activities and tuition . Tuition also got problems, what the , haizzz.
I try to recall the happier day during this holiday , i think is today and the day went to ah dear house . Wao, both of these days are thursday too. Ah dear said that she started blogging is for improving her language skills . But for me, i started blogging is for relaxing and to give vent from my annoyed life .
The day before yesterday , my uncle had an accident at Butterworth . His motorbike had rammed two motorbikes, two Malay. My mom said he was lucky that noone had seriously injured and of course he too. He's now at GMC Hospital, his foot was injured,and his nose was abrasion too. Tuesday night, when we received the new that he accidented was at 11.57p.m. We rushed to the hospital at Butterworth and transfer him to Penang hospital. At the hospital there, we saw the sufferer's families and friends . The sufferers was actully serious than my uncle, i feel so sorry to them. Well, on the way to Penang hospital, both my mom and aunt scolded my uncle,haiz, those adult....
What should i say next, about my relationship, there's nothing to talk about . Just........ i want to be single . But one of the guy i don't know how to tell him , he was sick and may leave anytime, this what he say . But i won't let ant of my friend left me, she too, LR. Ah dear i am so lost now, what isthe best decesion i should do , what's it
I try to recall the happier day during this holiday , i think is today and the day went to ah dear house . Wao, both of these days are thursday too. Ah dear said that she started blogging is for improving her language skills . But for me, i started blogging is for relaxing and to give vent from my annoyed life .
The day before yesterday , my uncle had an accident at Butterworth . His motorbike had rammed two motorbikes, two Malay. My mom said he was lucky that noone had seriously injured and of course he too. He's now at GMC Hospital, his foot was injured,and his nose was abrasion too. Tuesday night, when we received the new that he accidented was at 11.57p.m. We rushed to the hospital at Butterworth and transfer him to Penang hospital. At the hospital there, we saw the sufferer's families and friends . The sufferers was actully serious than my uncle, i feel so sorry to them. Well, on the way to Penang hospital, both my mom and aunt scolded my uncle,haiz, those adult....
What should i say next, about my relationship, there's nothing to talk about . Just........ i want to be single . But one of the guy i don't know how to tell him , he was sick and may leave anytime, this what he say . But i won't let ant of my friend left me, she too, LR. Ah dear i am so lost now, what isthe best decesion i should do , what's it
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